Hello my Dear Readers!
It’s been to long, and is good to be back. Happy (almost) March!!! 🙂
I have set some goals for myself, and plan to try to accomplish them…care to read them?
- Spend more time with God.
Everyone knows I am a Jesus Freak. And though I like to think that I spend time with my savior, and best friend, I don’t as much as I’d like, or feel like I should. I spend a lot of time in prayer, and in praise, but how much am I digging down deep into my theology? I love theology. I honest to goodness do! But how much am I challenging myself?
- Blog more.
This is pretty self explanatory. I hope to blog at least once week.
- Put up more songs.
Once a week too? Maybe?
- Write more songs.
I love music. Writing lyrics can be such a great escape for me…and it is often one of my ways to spend time with God. Taking scripture, and translating it into lyrics, and music?
- Journal more.
Journaling my hopes, thoughts, and feelings helps me, SO MUCH. I don’t know why. It just does….plus: it makes for good memories later!
- Work on my book.
I just like writing, and I want to finish another book! 🙂
- Finish my NLS.
“NLS” stands for “National LifeSaving Course”, though I have’t kept you posted on this, I have succeeded in getting Bronze Medallion, Bronze Cross, and Standard First Aid, and my hope is to become a lifeguard!!! 🙂 I am asthmatic, athletic, and allergy induced. This makes the physical aspects of these courses A LOT harder on me….and I REALLY want to pass these.
- Survive Grade 11.
- Eat healthier.
I think we all struggle with eating habits, and I want to get in shape, and eat better.
- Not “fret” so much.I am the type of person who is very detailed oriented, when it comes to certain things. I also tend to overthink things…extremely sometimes! For example, last night I started thinking about a (good) conversation I had with my close friend, the I started hoping that what I was saying wasn’t projecting the wrong idea. I had started telling them about the fact that I had been feeling slightly lonely lately. Most of the things I was saying made me hope that
(a): I didn’t seem self-centered.
(b): I didn’t feel uninterested in their life.
(c): That I was desperate, and unsocial.
(d): That I was insecure.
I just want to be a good servant. I want to be there for people, and I don’t mind speaking my mind…but I don’t want to hurt, annoy or be self-centred. How can I help others, if I’m caught up in myself?
Desperate and unsocial? As far as I know, I’m neither.
As for the “insecure” part…I’m not insecure. I’ve always known who I am, and what I enjoy. I’m fine with who I am: appearance, and personality wise…I can be a little to loud, a little crazy, and a tad annoying…but that’s okay. People can choose to adjust to it, or they can choose to not get to know me better. Sometimes though, I worry that I might scare away some of the people I hold closest, and dearest. Perhaps that is “insecure”…but it’s not as much of an insecurity as a fear. And perhaps that isn’t even right. It’s not even worry that I scared them off…it’s more the fact that I DON’T want to annoying them, or hurt them, or be the person that they don’t want to talk too. These are the people that I hold in my heart, think about, and love as brothers and sisters. I want them to want to talk to me too…
- Use the opportunities I have.
I guess this isn’t as much of a “goal” as it’s more of a “ongoing continuation.”
I live in a small town with limited options, and also money can be tight. I want to do my best, and I try to push my limits, but lately I struggle with the “what if I could be more?” question. I’ve always wanted to be a Student Dance Instructor. But as much as I love the ladies at our local dance studio as of late I hadn’t felt as if I was learning, and was being pushed to learn, and extend my limits. I wasn’t learning, was I? I didn’t feel like I was climbing up, but rather, standing bored. I also never felt quite accepted, and like I was given a fair chance. I love the ladies at the studio, I honestly do, but that was what I felt like. I guess the dream ran out of steam? Maybe? Possibly? I don’t know. 😛 I might pick up dance again next year…it costs quite a bit of money though…we shall see.
On top of that, I want to learn more music. I want to learn, and grow, and experience. I’m going to have to work for everything I get. So that’s what I’ll do.
I want to be and do the best I can. In everything. And that takes work.
I’m not afraid of hard work.
I like to think that I have used all the opportunities that I’ve been presented with. And I plan to keep doing this.
There we go. 🙂
I’m glad you got to read this.
And I’m glad I got to write this.
Keep on Keeping On!
(Yes Will, I DID steal that from you!!!)
PS–My overthinking brain has told me to say this: please do not take anything I have said as bragging, putting myself or something…these are just the way I see myself, my heart, and my feelings.